I woke today feeling a lot better than I have in a few days.  I felt energized by the sun and sky... their power is strong.   Everything seems alive and green.  I am going to carry this feeling all day and remember that life is what I make it.  I am in the Now today.

I'm struggling today to find peace within.  My life seems to be in turmoil and I'm having a tough time finding the "Now".

I know all my fears are caused by my thoughts, but I'm worried about my job and finances... it always seems to be the case lately when I am stressed about money.  I lost my job a few years ago and have been struggling ever since to find my way.  I do have a new job now that holds many promises in the future, but as I have seen... nothing is guaranteed.  I have put my heart and soul into it so far, but hte returns have not been as fruitful as I envisioned and it is bringing me down.  I am trying to stay positive and not fret.  My worries are keeping me from peace and I just want some clarity and direction to go in.  I am a little lost on my path, although I know it won't change, because whtever is out there will come anyway... I just want to know now and I guess that's what's keeping me from really living in the moment and just relaxing.

Any advice would be appreciated as I could really use it.

I've been searching for a site like this where I could talk about spirituality with people who see things similar to me.  Although I am open to new perspectives and hope you will lend a hand in my personal development.  I have never really believed in "God" or christianity and believe it is all a farce.  I believe you find strenght from within and in nature.  When I stare up at the stars at night in my back yard, I feel very small in the grand scheme of things, but yet I feel alive and full of hope.  I am an idealist and look for nirvana in all that I do.

When I am in "The Now" I feel things are perfect and in the stillness I connect with everything around me.  I feel the strenght of the trees that surround my yard and the power of the sun.  Colors seem brighter, sounds are more clera and I am at peace.  I try everyday to have at leats one in the "Now" moment, yet I wish for a continuous feeling of inner peace, yet life comes back and the internal dialogue starts again.  I hope you can help me find the illusive continuous presence that I desire.