I've been searching for a site like this where I could talk about spirituality with people who see things similar to me.  Although I am open to new perspectives and hope you will lend a hand in my personal development.  I have never really believed in "God" or christianity and believe it is all a farce.  I believe you find strenght from within and in nature.  When I stare up at the stars at night in my back yard, I feel very small in the grand scheme of things, but yet I feel alive and full of hope.  I am an idealist and look for nirvana in all that I do.

When I am in "The Now" I feel things are perfect and in the stillness I connect with everything around me.  I feel the strenght of the trees that surround my yard and the power of the sun.  Colors seem brighter, sounds are more clera and I am at peace.  I try everyday to have at leats one in the "Now" moment, yet I wish for a continuous feeling of inner peace, yet life comes back and the internal dialogue starts again.  I hope you can help me find the illusive continuous presence that I desire.